Once upon a time I was an avid reader. That was BLS.
Avid [av-id] Adj. 1. Enthusiastic; ardent; dedicated; keen; 2. keenly desirous; eager; greedy.
Yes, that was me! I subscribed to three daily newspapers (News-Argus, N & O, and WSJ), at least six monthly magazines (Forbes, Oprah, Biography, Reader's Digest, CCM, Business 2.0, Newsweek,etc.), and received daily updates from Word-A-Day, Lawyers' Weekly, CourtTv. I subscribed to webzines, list serves, and blogs (of course). I took my kids to the library on a weekly basis so that they, too, would enjoy the world of words and appreciate where they could take you.
That was BLS. Now I am the inimical reader.
Inimical. [i-nim-i-kuhl] Adj. 1. Adverse, contrary, opposed to
I do not even want to read street signs. The scrolling news across the bottom of CNN...totally ignored. It's just mumbo jumbo to me.
The sheer amount of reading that has to be--as in MUST BE--completed each day is overwhelming. After a mere three weeks of reading assignments, if all of the pages were combined into one volume, I dare say it could rival War and Peace.
I realized the extent of this new aversion to words today. When I left campus after class...completely famished, of course. So, my first stop is an eatery. The only rule? I do not want to go some place new where I would be required to (1) read the menu; (2) compare choices; (3) analyze the cost versus content argument; and (4) make a decision. So, I stop at the same cafeteria and basically eat the same or similar lunch selection. No words or reading required; just point to the food picture and it appears on your plate.
This new status as the inimical reader has me annoyed with the former avid reader who did not take advantage of every (or most) opportunities to read for pleasure...the sheer joy of reading. The stacks of books on my shelves that will probably not be touched for years are just mere memorials of the once avid reader who lived here. But that was BLS. How sad a demise.
There's about a hundred pages of reading for tonight's assignments, and probably just as much for tomorrow night's. The inevitable cannot be delayed for more than a few moments. The clock is ticking and tomorrow is only hours away. Whether I sleep or eat is optional; but I must read. Time to turn the page...
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3 comments:
You still have such a way with words! One day you will be able to read for joy again... granted, it may be 10 years after you pass the Bar... but you will enjoy reading again!
Love reading your blog and catching up on what's going on with you! Can't wait for the next!
Love ya!
Shan
Girl I absolutely love reading your blog....I check in way too often to see if you've posted something new. I agree with Shan -you have a gift with the words. Hope all is well and I look forward to your next post. Steph
Now you know what I meant when I said I didn't want to read a single thing after starting school. Even after taking some of your classes at JCC! hahahahaha On a different level, of course, but the same for me. Finished, I now enjoy books again. You will too. I enjoy your blogs as always and share them with others. I am excited for you. Keep up the good work girl!!!
yaya friend, Jane
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