The Heart v. The Head

Spring semester exams ended 10 days ago. The next day was law school graduation. Sunday was Mother's Day, and it required a trip to North Carolina to spend a few hours with my mom. I had to be back in town on Monday to begin the summer intensive for Professional Responsibility. Fast forward a week and this Saturday I will take the PR exam and then head back to North Carolina for the summer.

I am looking forward to working with the law firm this summer, and I am so grateful to have a paid position. I only hope that at some point my heart will choose to join me there. For now, it has decided to stay in Virginia and make me absolutely miserable until I return. My head has tried to reason with my heart. My head knows that it makes a lot of sense to return to North Carolina. I have a lot of contacts there that could make the job search so much easier. But my heart just won't listen. My head has even tried to negotiate a compromise, e.g., let's live in the North Carolina mountains, or at least an hour from "home." My heart still believes that is far too close.

As you can see, I am torn. In spite of the heart's protests, North Carolina is our destination for this summer; and it is my goal to meet as many people as possible in order to make a little rain for a future job offer. Whether that will be in North Carolina, Virginia, Tennessee, or West Virginia, only time will tell. My head says "take it one day at a time, and remember you're not in charge of this gravy train." Great advice that really needs to be taken to heart.